-This is My Suicide-

I haven't put my thoughts and feelings down for a long time now I guess I've been avoiding gathering all my thoughts and putting it down I do hate doing it sometimes, it's always so emotional when you try sort your thoughts But I like to see the long record I have of my thoughts somehow Sort of like a record of my pain, sorrow and anger, what ever that overwhelms me Back to how I've been feeling... I'm falling... Yet again.... I never seem to be able to lay a strong foundation I'm falling into darkness Into sin Into the grasp of the Devil My mind is intoxicated with his poison I'm shackled by past, my guilt and his poison These chains bound me to darkness I can never reach too far out to light These chains restrain me No matter what people say Not even if God forgives me I can never forgive myself I can never accept myself For I am imprisoned..... In myself.... Ironic? It does seem confusing Even to myself I starting to think Maybe this is me This is my char...

Last day of the rest of my life I wish I would have known cause I'd have kissed my momma goodbye. I didn't tell her that I loved her or how much cared or thank my Pops for all the talks and all the wisdom he shared. Unaware I just did what I always do. Everyday the same routine before I skate off to school But who knew that this day wasn't like the rest, Instead of takin the test I took two to the chest. Call me blind but I didn't see it comin and Everybody was runnin but I couldn't Hear nothin, except gun blast, it happened so fast I didn't really know this kid though I sat by him in class. Maybe this kid was reachin' out for love or Maybe for a moment he forgot who he was or Maybe this kid just wanted to be hugged, Whatever it was I know it's because CHORUS We are, We are (We are) the youth of the nation (repeat) x4 Little Suzie she was only twelve She was given the world with every chance to excel Hang with the boys and hear the stories they tell She ...