-This is My Suicide-

I hate myself I hate my life I hate the things I do sometimes Things that make me feel guilty and sometimes the guilt of the sins are irreversible somethings are done and you can never take it back you can forgive yourself or pretend it never happened but it truly never is it never will be the same again I just want to punish myself for my stupidity for my weakness for giving in I wish I never had feelings I wish I could block it out and have total control of myself

My gosh I hate my sad pathetic self Why when I wanna do something There are always hindrances When I want to make things better something always happens that makes it impossible to happen Now I feel so pathetic feel like such a loser Life is hard Dying is easy

My first semester ended Second one starts at the end of the month It has been hard I am worried I still feel down I feel like crying I feel pathetic I feel useless and I feel terrible I just wanna hide from the world Hide from everyone I don't want to be around people I don't want people to see me Somehow I feel ashamed Ashamed of myself My faith is going downhill Everything is going downhill