-This is My Suicide-

Weeks after SPM, hallelujah I can breathe again I can smile again, i can laze around without a care in the world I've been waiting for this moment for a long time I knew even before that I would feel extremely relieved when I get here but I never realized that at the end of the tunnel is an empty place I've wasted my entire life thinking about SPM and school I had no other life besides that It made me so miserable Now that it's over Yes I am relieved but than again I am also lost Although I'm not desperate to run away from everything to end my life But I find myself longing for death more and more as each day passes My soul wants to be set free I feel so lost and uncertain So insecure about everything but death just seem to draw me in deep in me I have no words to describe the feeling but letting myself go to think about death gives me a sorta "quenched" feeling from being thirsty for so long I've been a walking corpse for as long as I can remember I still...