-This is My Suicide-

I tried to kill the pain But only brought more (so much more) I lay dying And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal I'm dying (dying) Praying (praying) Bleeding (bleeding) And screaming Am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost? My God, my tourniquet Return to me salvation My God, my tourniquet Return to me salvation Do you remember me? Lost for so long Will you be on the other side? Will you forget me? I'm dying (dying) Praying (praying) Bleeding (bleeding) And screaming Am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost? My God, my tourniquet Return to me salvation My God, my tourniquet Return to me salvation (Return to me salvation) [I long to die] My God, my tourniquet Return to me salvation My God, my tourniquet Return to me salvation My wounds cry for the grave My soul cries for deliverance Will I be denied? Christ - tourniquet - my suicide

I don't feel better Even if I do, it's only temporary I've tried to kill myself Strangely as I did, even though I was crying It felt right, I was incredibly calm, Almost happy in fact. I never seen myself to have any worth I don't see myself being happy again I've only caused more pain being here My sister says I don't bother to try anything I've done enough trying, it only causes more pain I feel lost mostly, I don't know what to do anymore Just empty, If you ask why didn't I ask for help, Help doesn't make me feel better, even if it did, it's only temporarily I know you'd just laugh at my face right now or want to slap me "I can't do it so no point" you say? Weather I can or can not It does not make me feel better Maybe it does, but only for a while I do not see any potential in my life Even if I do get better from trying I don't think it's good enough You'll think all I care about is my feelings Well, I have h...