-This is My Suicide-

I'm so emotional I cry over little things hair, my dog, talking to my principle all sorts of silly things I can cry buckets from reading a simple sad story I hear things about animals and I can cry I'm not the type that likes to cry I feel pathetic for getting so emotional I'm worse that a baby and I can't handle stress too I can have a mental break down from a stress I can just cry when I think about things I need to do How do people not cry? Like counselors when they listen to their patients and it's so overwhelming, how do they not cry? It's so hard trying to live a normal life

I don't bother anymore I worried till I'm sick of it I just want to ignore it all I want to disappear I want it all to disappear I wish there aren't any consequences I know I'm being stupid, selfish, ignorant, irresponsible, immature, cowardly Yes, I'm a coward Yes, I'm running away from my problems I know all this but I don't know what else to do I can't face it I'm numbed, I don't bother anymore I'm scared and worrisome But all that just burst and now I can't be bothered anymore All of it hit me Now I lost my mind My morality and rationality have collapsed My mentality is fading out