-This is My Suicide-

I learned about this disorder in class on Monday. When I was reading the lecture slides on the symptoms, I was stunned. All of the symptoms summed up what I was going through all those years in Secondary school. Finally, it makes sense. All the time in school, everyone thought I was either faking being unwell or that I had a really weak immune system. I really started believing that I was weak and maybe even slowly dying or degrading because of how often it happened. Even my parents didn't believe me because I was always okay when I was at home or outside of school. So in school for years, I'd often have what I just realised  as a "full blown panic attack". I'm glad I don't panic so easily now. Could be because of my antidepressants and mood stabalisers. Or because I graduated and finally got the hell out of there. I never been in a situation where I was surrounded with that many people since school either. And I'm not terrified of my lecturers like I was ...