-This is My Suicide-

I've been meaning to write this done for a long time but I keep getting distracted. I'm having problems concentrating. My attention span is short. That really sucks when you are trying to focus on a lecture or assignment. I really want to shoot my brains out. I feel like I can't max it out to the full capacity. For, I think more than a year now my struggles in writing work is getting worse I feel like the only effort I am capable of is just shitty effort I sometimes read other students work when we are doing a group assignment I'm always amazed by what they can do. I guess one problem is that my mind is always summarized, straight to the point everything ends up way to short or not enough when on paper Now I'm concerned that I'm making myself suffer by continuing on Maybe I should just give up and start from scratch else where A new beginning...... but I'm probably going to face the same problem my brain's gears aren't grinding I do...