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Argh!

i'm still thinking about dropping out of school
should have dropped out 2 years ago
i feel vey alone, but then i do better alone
i'm nuerotic
i'm different from everybody at achool
i dun fit in with society
i'm not accepted
kinda crappy being by myself
but its ok
it;s crappyer being in school
and having to do so many things
it sucks that we have make something out of ourselves
it sucks that we have to do better to have a better future
it sucks that we have to do anything at all
i feel like crying when i;m in school but sometimes the tears wont appear
i cry inside
just thinking about it makes me cry
but it's not so bad, i can handle my crying better now
when i was in form 1-2 i'd cry almost every night
cry myself to sleep
i just really wanna scream
and wish i was invincible
i wish they let me be and let me rot on my own
screw up my own life with my own hands
i wonder if i can last till SPM
i;m breaking down and going insane already
i can;t study or get myself to do any homework
just wanna drive my head to the window or the mirror

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