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I hate her and I can't stand her
She such a bitch
Why can't she cause less trouble
Yet she complains and say I don't appreciate my 'rents
But she doesn't act like she does either
She's such a bitch
I try so hard to like her
Sometimes it's ok
But most of the time I hate being related to her
She bosses me around
She talks in a rude manner
But she says she's talking nicely
But I think it's more like sarcastic rudeness
Outside and in front of her friends
She seems so nice
Even talks to me and treat me differently
Even my parents when we're in front of others
But at home she's a rotten bitch
She'll probably get all the sympathy from her friends
And those that adore her
They'll all think that I'm a problematic useless sibling
And think the fams got weird problems
She complaints that this whole house is messed up
And this family is so misunderstanding
Yea, maybe but doesn't she realize
When she's having problems with us
And maybe other "stupid people"
That the problem is really herself
And her attitude
That she'd the messed up one
And that's why we're all against her
She should look in the mirror and change herself
Instead of telling me to do the same
I'm already trying my best to be a good person
And condemning myself everyday for my own sins
Thinking about what I can do to make things better
Trying not to make more sins
Forcing myself to control my temper
Being nice when I really wanna scream
Hating myself for being so fake
Trying to be sincere
Looking for ways to make money for my family
So my parents can suffer less
Keeping my mouth shut from speaking about my desires
Because I know it'll be too much burden to them
Using up all my own money to buy what I need
Because I don't wanna ask them for money
They need all the money they can get
I control myself to not lose control
Or scream or be rude to my parents
Even at the hardest times because I don't want them
to suffer any more pain than they already feel
And repay for all the damage that I have caused
Yet she's the one being seen as the hero
And sometimes not thinking about what others may feel
How my parents feel and what they are trying to do
One day I hope the Holy Spirit will convict her