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I'm sorry Dad, I'm sorry Mom

How many times did you guys
have been asked.... about me....
How many times, did you guys
have to lie.... to them....
straight in their faces....
hurting inside....
When they ask about my meds
you guys had to say it's all for
ADHD.....
As if it were that easy to say
I know it's so painful to say
that your child has depression
How can anyone say it without
any feelings of fear of judgment
You two hesitate to answer
every time they ask
When they express concern
You guys have to say
That I'm already cured....
of ADHD....
When in truth
it's nothing like that at all
Even I hesitate when
I'm asked what's wrong
with me......
My parents always
barge in explain ADHD
Not because they are
trying to save face
They're just trying to
protect me from getting
hurt.....

Thank you mom & dad
I know you're hurting inside as well
And I am, truly, deeply Sorry

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