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The last day of 2011

I'm honestly not looking forward to the new year
it's like starting over again from the beginning
getting older and weaker
losing more time of your life to do things
you want to do
Life bites harder each time
It's going to get more complicated
A new year all over again
more problems with society
the climate and pollution gets worse
evil continues to grow
More people get influenced by the wrong things
Life's like a game
We get to a harder level as years pass
never knowing what's to come
never knowing when it'll end
part of me wishes that the world will
really end at 2012
I'm tired of everything already

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