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Burn out

Is there possible consideration of students getting burn out instead of working people?
I've been at this since 2011.
It's been new subjects every 3-4 months with crazy assignments.
I'm not really motivated to achieve anything, I just want it over and done with.
I want it to be finished and end.
It's also been increasingly difficult to write assignments now.
I feel like I'm drying out of creativity.
I sturggle to even write 250 words of facts or garbage.
But at the same time I do enjoy being a student.
I like learning and new textbooks.
I like that my subjects change every semester and it's like a fresh start.
I can't possibly take a sabbatical and then continue with my studies.
I have to endure it to the end but I fear I would increasing be less productive.
Losing all passion and motivation.
Not caring about anything as longs as its over and done with.
Becoming increasing more incompetant than I already am.
Brain drying out like a lose leaf.
No quality nor quantity.

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