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I pretend I care but actually I'm too tired to bother
I try to be responsible but in fact I just want a new beginning
I'm sick of everything but I continue to smile
I'm being what you've told me to be to continue to please you
Cuz I don't know who I am and what I want to do anymore
I try to be a good person because I screwed up most of my life
And I need the need of feeling needed
I need the need to feel important
Because I don't have anything else to feel good about
I'm totally lost in sorrow and hurt
I shut myself away from everyone
Cuz I can't trust anyone anymore
I try not to get too attached
Because I know for a fact that I have to depart later
And I cannot handle anymore pain
Inside I'm screaming and crying everyday
I can't handle life anymore
Yet I hold on and try my best not to end my life
Because I promised those who love me I give it all I got
But I'm sorry if I kill myself in the end
It's hard trying to hold on
I wish I never had emotions
I know you will never understand
Don't say you do until you've been in my shoes
All I can try to do is to give hope to others
By smiling and loving them
Admire those who endure the pain with ease
And hope that they'll remember me when I'm gone

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