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Rest In Peace


She was the President of St.John Am that I was in when I was in Form 4. She's my favourite President. I liked her, she was nice and cute too. We got along well..... I can't believe she's gone forever. She was diagnosed with Leukemia on December 2008 after her SPM (O Levels). She was battling the cancer and she seemed so strong. She had a lot of pain and suffering but she still managed to smile. I had faith that she would heal and win this cancer. But I am proven wrong. She breathe her last breath yesterday, the 15th at 8.47am. I can't believe it. I'm still shocked and I dunno how to handle this. I never had a friend die before. I'm depressed and lost. At least I managed to cry this time, because I've always felt like crying these few months but the tears wouldn't fall. My dearest friend, Rest In Peace. I sure hope to see you in Heaven and I hope that you will remember me then.

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