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What's the point now....

I feel like I'm getting no where
What's the point
Nothings gonna get better
I'm stuck like this
Why bother
I giving up
I'm not gonna care anymore
It's always a dead end
Pointless to go on
I have no mood for any of this
A shattered soul
A walking corpse
On the face of this earth

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