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I'm back to feeling empty inside
I'm down and depressed
I can't stand each day
I'm so frustrated
I've had enough of trying to get by
Thoughts of suicide come crawling back into my mind
I already feel dead and dry inside
I am hollow
Only the blood pumping in my veins are living
My soul is dead
I die more and more as each day passes
Rotting away
In this place where they call the land of the living
what is there to live for?

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