-This is My Suicide-

Please forgive me If I leave you It's not that I don't care how you may feel It's not that I don't care about you It's not that I want you to feel the pain I'm not trying to be selfish I've just had enough of all this pain and suffering The emptiness I feel The sorrow It's overwhelming I know I have been a burden to you I know it's hard to have me around Having to be extra careful Think of my passing as your freedom I don't wanna hurt you anymore I don't wanna be a burden to you anymore I know your doing the best you can I'm sorry I'll go away and I hope you will be free Have one less thing to worry about Think it for the better It's not easy to be me All this pain, sorrow and emptiness Don't think I'm selfish until you have been in my shoes And felt this pain I have It's not like any other kind It's much stronger than any emotion Most people probably have felt I know a lot of people have pain too But mine is stron...

I hate that you have to go through the same thing But I know you are stronger than I am I want to help you but I don't know how How can I release from your pain? I understand your pain It's such a shame we have to hide it All I can do is lend you my ear and shoulder I have yet to overcome my pain as well We can cry together

Inoue Izumi D.O.B. : 19 Dec 1992 Where are you? I haven't seen you since you left in 2006. You disappeared and you abandoned you email and any other possible contacts. Did our short but meaningful friendship mean nothing to you? You were the light to my darkness. You were my strength. I know you had many problems, I sat by listening to all of it. I know you wanted love from your parents. I hope you have it now. I hope you are well and happy. Thanks for fighting for me.

I haven't seen you for almost 2 years I hope your doing well abroad I still miss you everyday I want to see you Hug you I miss your voice I miss your laugh I miss your smile Your strong personality Your beautiful eyes I wanna touch your face I think it was 4 years ago when I feel for you I don't know why But the one I look forward to another day to meet I always try to grab your attention I remember to smile for you I talk to you whenever I get a chance You were the reason I went to school for It's kinda funny now that I look back Yet my heart still aches and screams for you I thank you for making life easier when You were here Thank you for the encouragement Thanks for being there I can't let you go No matter how hard I try It's too hard and too painful I still miss you

The world has broken down Every stone’s been turned around We feel no fear at all Not at all We don’t know what’s to come Our beginning had already begun And now we have to run Come on The last look back is black The night turns dark ahead When there’s no turning back We’re glad So glad No turning back No turning back Where have you gone? You made us feel so strong You lost us and now we are Alone It’s dark despite the light Tomorrow’s not in sight And we were born to go On and on The last look back is black The night turns dark ahead When there’s no turning back We’re glad So glad No turning back No turning back Let us run and don’t look back We leave behind a burning track Let us run and don’t look back We leave behind a burning track Come on Come on The last look back is black The night turns dark ahead When there’s no turning back We’re glad So glad The last looks back is black The night turns dark ahead There’s no turning back We’re glad So glad No turning back No turning back

I'm staring at a broken door There's nothing left here anymore My room is cold It's making me insane I've been waiting here so long But now the moment seems to've come, I see the dark clouds coming up again. Running through the monsoon Beyond the world, To the end of time, Where the rain won't hurt Fighting the storm, Into the blue, And when I lose myself I think of you, Together we'll be running somewhere new Through the monsoon. Just me and you A half moon's fading from my sight I see a vision in its light But now it's gone and left me so alone I know I have to find you now Can hear your name, I don't know how Why can't we make this darkness feel like home? Running through the monsoon Beyond the world To the end of time Where the rain won't hurt Fighting the storm Into the blue And when I lose myself I think of you Together we'll be running somewhere new And nothing can hold me back from you Through the monsoon Hey! Hey! I'm fig...

Emotions, I sometimes wish i never had them so uncontrollable so destructible You're not here I try hard to let go You're burned in my memory I can never forget your smile your laugh the times spent together but all this I have kept to myself for I know you can never feel the same way about me For my feelings for you is not natural is not right in society is not accepted and for a fact that you are not like me a sinner by existence You can never feel the same way i do For you are normal and I am not I miss you so I feel so torn thinking about you I know we can never be I know it stupid to even dream I want to forget you but i can't I cherish the time we spent together even if i could never express myself and show you my real feelings because I didn't want to ruin the friendship we already have Your beautiful and strong I need you but I can never tell you Now that you're far away I feel more and more broken inside I wanna hold you and touch your face My heart screams...

Its getting light outside She is still there but no one cares They sang her Happy Birthday yesterday without her Do you want to see yourself flying through the night? This gift is what you need You're gonna be alright Eyes close and fall Her first time on the edge The scars will stay forever Side to side with death A moment that feels better Darkness and light are blinding her sight She's not coming back Its getting light outside She cannot sleep 'cause time stands still Someone's hand is touching her, she has no will Each time when it hurts, she just feels so alone She doesn't care at all Her memories are long gone Eyes close and fall And closer to the edge The scars will stay forever Side to side with death This time feels even better Darkness and light are blinding her sight She's not coming back She shuts the door She longs for more and more And more She shuts the door She longs for more and more And more Just once more Everyone is watching Her arms are so s...

This used to be our secret Now I'm hiding here alone Can't help but read our names on the wall And wash them off the stone I trusted you in every way But not enough to make you stay Turn around I've lost my ground Come and rescue me I'm burning, can't you see Come and rescue me Only you can set me free Come and rescue me Rescue me Rescue me We lied when we were dreaming Our crying was just fake I wish you could deny it Here and today My SOS on radio The only chance to let you know What I fear Can you hear? Come and rescue me I'm burning, can't you see Come and rescue me Only you can set me free Come and rescue me Rescue me You and me You and me You and me The walls are coming closer My senses fade away I'm haunted by your shadow I reach to feel your face You're not here Are you here? Come and rescue me Rescue me Come and rescue me I'm burning, can't you see Come and rescue me Only you can set me free Come and rescue me Rescue me You and me Yo...

I still feel miserable More miserable at school very frustrated and sick of seeing the same classmates and teachers, heh the more i can't stand feel like bashing their faces in more and more Can't study i feel an obstruction in my head can flow with the subjects well everything is complected as hell don't think dads priest is right for me although he insist suppose to make me feel better but i feel worse instead so much for drinking that shit burnt paper I feel more down than ever I hate myself and life more now I still hate school but trying to make a change with RR I just wanna get wasted Drink till I get drunk Get multiple injections I love needles and I enjoy the pain I just wanna throw my life away get on a speedy bike and just go till something hits me I like the feeling of blood oozing out It's like my life draining away slowly I wanna donate blood all of it I like physical pain takes away all your thinking and it makes you feel part of you is gone like your sole...