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I'm Sorry

Please forgive me If I leave you
It's not that I don't care how you may feel
It's not that I don't care about you
It's not that I want you to feel the pain
I'm not trying to be selfish
I've just had enough of all this pain
and suffering
The emptiness I feel
The sorrow
It's overwhelming
I know I have been a burden to you
I know it's hard to have me around
Having to be extra careful
Think of my passing as your freedom
I don't wanna hurt you anymore
I don't wanna be a burden to you anymore
I know your doing the best you can
I'm sorry
I'll go away and I hope you will be free
Have one less thing to worry about
Think it for the better
It's not easy to be me
All this pain, sorrow and emptiness
Don't think I'm selfish until you have
been in my shoes
And felt this pain I have
It's not like any other kind
It's much stronger than any emotion
Most people probably have felt
I know a lot of people have pain too
But mine is stronger
I'm different and I'm in a lot of pain
Please let me go
I want to put and end to this pain
Please don't let me suffer anymore
Don't let me go insane
Just please let me go
And do not regret
It's for the better
Don't be angry
I'm sorry
I want life to end
I want it all to end
So just let me be
and let me die

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