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Since my last post :

I still feel miserable
More miserable at school
very frustrated and sick
of seeing the same classmates
and teachers, heh the more i can't stand
feel like bashing their faces in more and more
Can't study
i feel an obstruction in my head
can flow with the subjects well
everything is complected as hell
don't think dads priest is right for me
although he insist
suppose to make me feel better
but i feel worse instead
so much for drinking that shit burnt paper
I feel more down than ever
I hate myself and life more now
I still hate school but trying to make a change
with RR
I just wanna get wasted
Drink till I get drunk
Get multiple injections
I love needles and I enjoy the pain
I just wanna throw my life away
get on a speedy bike and just go
till something hits me
I like the feeling of blood oozing out
It's like my life draining away slowly
I wanna donate blood
all of it
I like physical pain
takes away all your thinking
and it makes you feel
part of you is gone
like your sole
it's satisfactory but only temporary
Promise people I wont hurt myself
But it's driving me insane
I feel like I'm going insane
I wanna get locked up
and slowly die in my insanity
I want my soul to be sucked out
I can't take this
Everyday I'm just so frustrated
How can anyone live like this?
Maybe I'm not normal
maybe i'm not even human
I know I'm Gods child
but sometimes I can't help
but think I'm not
Cuz I just wanna kill people
People that give me hell
I just wanna put a bullet in their heads
I see those bastards that go around
disturbing people
how I wish they could just die
I wish I could axe their limbs off
Reminds me off the Sweeny Todd song
We all deserve to die
I wish they brought back
Death sentence
Life sucks
No wait,
My life sucks
There's not much meaning in it
I'd rather go to Africa and build a well
so they can have clean water than
study fucking history,
which is so biased!
And plus there's no story
as in like link or something
I just hate being here
I'd rather be planting rice
or breeding worms cuz
I know it'll make the world a
better place and we need it
I'd rather live a simple life
I'm so sick of the system
The people
The rules
The pressure
I just want it to end
I want my life to end
I've had it
Enough!!!

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