Where are you? I haven't seen you since you left in 2006. You disappeared and you abandoned you email and any other possible contacts. Did our short but meaningful friendship mean nothing to you? You were the light to my darkness. You were my strength. I know you had many problems, I sat by listening to all of it. I know you wanted love from your parents. I hope you have it now. I hope you are well and happy. Thanks for fighting for me.
It's been years since I wrote anything. I decided to stop writing because I didn't want to have to rethink the thoughts and go through all the emotion again. Lately my psychologist suggested that I should start writing again. So here I am. Short summary of what happened: I finished Secondary school, I'm glad I left and it's over. It was very hard for me there, even when I got diagnosed some teachers taught I could one day just get over my depression. Here I am, 21, in college, still suicidal, still need to take regular anti-depressants and mood stabilisers. However I think I'm the most "stable" condition I've ever been. I like college but I do struggle in coping, unfortunately more than others. Also I have problems looking for interest. My psychiatrist and psychologist both said it's best if I have hobbies. It's hard because I stared getting depressed slowly when I was 9 and slowly lost interest in many thing. I've only been fixated ab...
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