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Destiny? Fate?

*sign* My family always love to see these fortune teller people
They say the same thing about me all the time
Stubborn and hot-headed
Ok I get it
But I try and am trying so hard to change that
Because I don't want to grow up becoming my father
or my aunt, both whom I despise sometimes in character
People say, you'll end up becoming like the people in your family you hate
and repeat what they did even if you hate in unconsciously
because you grew up seeing that and it automatically programs into you
I just can't help but cry knowing how I would turn out to be and how alike I am to them
It's like nothing I do can change it
I use to think we had a choice in our life
but it seems to have been determined from the date and time we were born
I just hope growing in my faith and word
Believing and healing in Him I can change my fate
And prove those sorry asses wrong
To say your readings mean nothing
Its all up to God to decide and only he knows, no one else
So right now they sorta probably have a picture in their head of me in the future
I hope I can changed the 360 degrees
Family sometimes is your support
at times I dream of the family I wished I had
also thank god for what I already have
but sometimes I think it would be best if I didn't have a family
And start anew and not have any influences
Or genetics or past life or any history at all

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