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A fresh new year

I still dunno what to do with myself
I feel so empty and hollow
Surrounded by sorrow
A walking corpse
I try to be better but I stumble and fall
so many times that I'm so tired and I don't wanna fall no more
I'm giving up
Darkness fills me
I dunno how to behave in front of people
I'm so used to being alone
Talking to myself and objects
And people in my imagination
In my imaginary world
Some people think I can talk to spirits
Cuz I tend to express with my face
when I talk in my head
Maybe I'm better off alone
Sinking deeper into my depression
Of coarse I don't show it to others
I automatically put a mask on when I meet others
It's so natural to me
I wonder if they would be surprised
If I were to take my own life
or would they even care
I wonder how many people would attend my funeral
I don't have many friends after all
Only a handful really know me
*sign*

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